Still looking at the three sides of the bill. . .
When I took my first course after I finished high school, I rented a place with my close relatives from a nearby city. It was very expensive considering that it was only a room but, it was spacey and big but it was hot as hell staying there. Living in the city for a few years until I finished my first course brought me to a whole new environment - where unlikely things are more likely to occur compared to my hometown.
I had the hots for her mom (she’s sexy but her face wasn’t that attractive), which was my distant uncle’s wife. They live in the house across the house where my room lies but I do take my meals in their house (they always had good meals and the pay was decent so it was all good). It’s a compound with like six houses and the distance from each house is like 5 to 15 steps away from the door so you can imagine that all people in that compound actually know each other! When I have nothing to do in my room, I go to their house to watch cable television, chill out with my friend/schoolmate which also lives in the compound, hang out in my 3rd (or 2nd maybe) cousin’s room. I guess she’s not your typical kid, I never really remembered what kind of a kid she was. She was a standout, a top honor roll student, beautiful and dig this - at the age of 8, she’s actually fixing herself (make-up, perfume, etcetera), or maybe i’m just thinking too much. Do kids of this age really do this these days? I mean not for play but do they really do these shit seriously? At first it was OK, she really didn’t bother me, she just stares at me all the time and tries to start conversations. But as time passed by and after she knew me well enough to be comfortable with what I am as a boarder there, I guess she figured out that I was too nice. And when people think you’re too nice - you get fucked up. She started to go physical and now that I remember it, she was just as aggressive as my ex whom I recognize as one of the most aggressive woman i’ve ever known in my life. I fear for the future of this kid (I think she’s high school now, I imagine that she should be one of the smartest, beautiful, sexiest and hottest girl in her school but i’d still not be interested in her - I think I will always have this notion that she’s a big pervert like her father, I hope she will not become a [closet] slut/whore because everything about her is good except her perversion in me). I remember watching very lewd pornographic movies when I was around her age, but I kept my perversion hidden, this girl on the other hand, expresses too much of her l-o-v-e. Oh God, I remember her hugging me very tightly in the dining room feeling my hard-on (I was turned on, sorry I don’t discriminate with kids and it’s just that this kid is really hot and good at flirting). Fuck. I don’t like how she dealt with her first infatuation/love/crush/whatever (me), this kid forces herself to me whenever she sees me. I was actually surprised when she fucking wrote me a love letter, she said she wanted to marry me when she grew up. Hold on, I think I was 16 or 17 at that time, 8 - 9 years age difference, not bad but not my preference either. And besides I don’t want trouble and sure I don’t discriminate age in attraction but I am smart enough to know not to deal with her or give in to her advances. She’s the girl that had the best smell over all the female (i’ll refer to women) beings i’ve ever known in my life, she was that good, note the comparison to women. She was friggin’ sly, friggin’ smart and friggin’ sexy hot at that young age and I belong to the guys that are actually not that interested in women, much more, girls (if she had boobs, she’d win over other older immature women/girls’ boyfriends). I lost count on how many times this girl forced a kiss (which she can only do when she straddles me and the kind of kiss? French Kiss, dig that!) on me, I also lost count of when she sat on top of me and straddled me (with clothes on but imagine a kid wearing panties rubbing her crotch on your legs while you’re lying - should have fulfilled one of a girl-lusting pedophile’s greatest fantasy) wherever she sees me lying taking a rest, hugged, tried to actually initiate sex with. She’s dangerous, very dangerous. To me, that is. It was a good thing her interest on boys was focused on me at that time, she would’ve made some poor boy/guy a big pervert with her advances. I just hope she got over me after all these time (last time i’ve seen her years after I moved out from that compound), she actually tried to flirt but it seems that she have lost most of her interest in me, outgrown her approach or actually felt embarrassment and realized that what she did for her “love” was not proper so she wasn’t that aggressive anymore, her style was more like showing me how her body has developed and how sexy she’s gotten and now i’m laughing for the absurdity of what I just wrote but it’s true! I just hope she doesn’t get pregnant as soon as she ovulates. If she hasn’t changed, i’d feel bad for the next male she’d get attracted to (if he’s 8 or more years her senior, if he’s not though, he’d be a very lucky guy, getting hot action always).
I don’t feel guilty for fantasizing her mom. But I do feel guilty for I actually gave in to her latest (and last) forced kiss attempt to me, good thing she stopped or i’d have to add having sex with a kid in my sexual experiences (and I figure i’d just start to collect sexual experiences with types of people because I already had sex with an experienced perverted pregnant woman). I’ll get back to her when she’s older if I find the time - to get revenge that is! And i’ll be more sly than her.